mid-week thoughts

Fitting it all in is hard.

My family is making a huge sacrifice for me. I need to think about that next time I'm feeling sorry for myself or un-loved.

Each day I strive to live in the moment, to be present in my life and to do my best. When my best doesn't seem like enough then I practice forgiveness. This is the most I can do, and a much gentler way of living.

This week of training has been difficult with John away in Hinton. I had a friend come sit on my couch for two mornings and then my in-laws come spend the night so that I could make my swim practices. Running seems to have taken a back burner. I am fitting in hills and speed workouts but not managing since last week to 'go long'. I plan to run this Friday morning for 2 hours to re-affirm my self-confidence in that area. This weekend is the MS Tour and I'm really looking forward to some quality time in the saddle. My teammates likely want to ride with me and do the usual stop and have lunch kind of ride but like 2006 I just want to go straight through and practice my race strategy. And so, I will, and unapologetically. We can visit after the ride :0)

Early to bed tonight after I get through my 2 hour trainer ride. It's hills in the morning tomorrow and a light recovery ride or swim.

Although my body is tired, my heart feels full of hope for a fun and hard race at Great White North.